can't bare the long hours...help....

I finally get a break!!! 2 day break i've been dying for! I've been dancing 6 days a week..and classes go from 9-7...it's been crazy!ppl always ask me..so you must have improved a lot??..well, honestly, i'm not quite sure..i still feel lousy... being promoted to trainee A...makes me feel worst! dancing with all the best dancers..they r so freaking good...=( i don't know what they eat...or what they do...they r just SO GOOD! i keep questioning myself why i am torturing myself by doing this??....

i've been learning a lot...normal days start with ballet technique, then pointe class or variations class, then we have pas de duex or jazz or modern, then another technique class, or character and yoga to cool off...pretty good schedule...just so tiring tho..=( plus we now have acting class too..it was WAY FUN! i really enjoyed that!n dance history class will be during our lunch break on thursday which means...i no longer have a break the whole thursday..tha'ts insane! yes it is!..ohmigod...the thought itself keeps me frightened!

so yup..i'm still in new york and joffrey has been exciting and crazy at the same time...i love it on some days...and hate it on others...guess that's what makes life colourful huh?/...ah well...

guess what??..peter pucci came to watch us in class!!!!! and he is going to use us for his gala benefit on the 28th of october....i'm excited...but for nothing really...cause i will no longer be here...so..i won't be able to be a part of his performance..but the dance piece looked so exciting.....it had a little jazzy twist to it...ah..darn...=(ah well... there's always next time..=)

it is beginning to get chilly here...i guess this marks the end of the summer...aw well..i had a pretty awesome summer here...=)...oh..i'm so excited..there's gonna be an end of the summer party tomorrow night..it's gonna be fun fun fun! yippie!

I'm over the moon...going nuts!

i got into trainee A..unbelievable!=)

Feeling on top of the world

I got lottery tickets to watch WICKED!!! first row, directly in the center...INCREDIBLE! Feeling like the luckiest gal on earth right now..i was dying to watch WICKED for a long time already..but tickets were sold out like 3 months in advance...so, today classes started at Joffrey again..it was awesome! (gonna miss that place so much)...after a good class..i just kept smiling stupidly to myself...and skipping around upbeat..=) so i decided to stop at the 50th street subway station which i normally don't do...i always stop at Columbus circle...i came out and saw Gershwin theater right opposite...i looked at my clock..eh..it's 445...maybe i can try for tickets..so i went and put my name down on the sheet..i was like..nvm lar..i got nothing much to do after this also..already so happy..just give it a shot la..i guess in my heart..i wanted it very much too..but..i didn't want to get disappointed..but there were so many ppl..i didn't want to put my hopes high...n suddenly i heard the guy say..where's jacqueline thong...i was like what???..ohmigod..tha'ts me!!!(in my usual blur way lar!) i was so happy..u have no idea..i was beaming with joy..and the world was so perfect! the past few weeks, i've been feeling really down..aside my injury...many of my friends left new york...my best buddy aka secret roommate returned back to poland...i felt pretty helpless..everyone in new york was busy with their own life..and i used to be myself too..until i couldn't dance much..even when i did..i felt really depressed...half of me..just wanted to jump on the plane back...i prayed for guidance to stand strong thru this, to be motivated, n not to give up...i just wanted to enjoy my last month in New York! He really did!!! He made my day..exactly what i needed to start a new school year..i'm so motivated now...=) will update on wicked tomororw..i need to sleep now..but i'm so happy..i don't think i can sleep..hehe..today was an awesome day!