Fallen in love with Jacqueline Appel's pretty apartment...

So, it's a bitter cold Saturday afternoon and I was just lazing around at home with my TV playing the ONLY english channel and I just fell in love with this apartment featured on Home & Home. So beautiful...she was an ex ballerina now a designer...it's so beautiful..i love it!




I am a very boring person when it comes to designs. I used to only love the olden british designs you see in old castles. This is totally a new something for me. Totally fell in love with it. Never imagined pretty any prettier...Totally loved it!

Celebration of love...

on this special day...couples normally have a time of their life...it's really nice to celebrate this day with that special other...on the other hand...u see those whom r single moan about getting thru this day..like it's rubbing it in ur face that u r single, lonely and perhaps miserable...it is indeed a very special day..but we normally forget the essense of the day which is suppose to be a celebration of love...this year...i would like to dedicate this special day to everyone whom has touched my life...to all my dearest friends whom r scattered everywhere..my best buddies...my friends from high school..from city ballet..from past productions...from italy....from college...from Ny...from Joffrey...n new made friends from Montreal..know that despite my absent mindedness...i think of u all very often n treasure the moments we spend together...to all past n present teachers...i am thankful for all that u have taught me despite me trying to outsmart u..to my past students...despite me shouting at u all the time know that i care....my family...my dad...my mom...my dearest grandparents..n especially my two brothers..thank you for all the support and love u have given me all these years...i miss u all so much...my ex boyfriend's...know that despite all the hurt,i still cherish the times we had together...n most importantly..to the special person i will be spending this special weekend with...Chris..thank you for inspiring me each n everyday...n lastly...to God n all those who were a part of bringing me back closer to him..especially Sister Claire n Sister Andrea...thank you for faith..i miss u all dearly..thank you all for your love and being a part of my life...without which life would be meaningless...

Happy Valentine's Day..May you all be showered with lots of love on this day and for every single day ahead..

Love package from Malaysia

I came home exhausted from another depressing day at the doctors and awaiting yet another appointment with my physio and x ray, CT & Echographic scans to be done on my foot. A brown box placed nicely right outside my room door. The handwriting of my mom printed clearly on the box. Tears just welled up in my eyes. I struggled to open it and felt weak for a few moments...inside...there was my favourite shoes, some leotards, a very pretty zip chain from my mother n most importantly...2 copies of the book i was awaiting for ever so long... "Dare to Dance"...the 25th anniversary book of city ballet..the book was very meaningful..every picture brought back a memory...i really can't express how beautiful the times were at City Ballet...the laughter we shared...i had a time of my life...these r some pictures i happen to have on my laptop of the times i shared with some of the greatest dancers n friends in the world...we had so many fun times i wish i could relive them...



Picture of the lovely studio at City Ballet, that is one of the most beautiful studio's i've danced in..



My best friends, Yi Fang n Jessica, my mother & I...Advance 2 class of 2003..if memory serves me right..but we spend almost the whole 15 years of our life together..i love u guys..



Me attempting to play the Alice's Violin at the Coppelia show...=P



School trip to TDS competition..=)



Our shoes...few days before I set off on my adventure to NY and said good bye to that beautiful place I spend most of my life...

God sent...

The past few weeks, I was going thru an awful time with my company and dancing. I injured my ankle and was waiting for an X ray to be done. I was miserable not being able to do any jumps or pointe work, which were highlights of my ballet classes. Worst, I was dropped from the Quebec performance because of my injury. Everyday I was crying inside. I felt like quitting and that I couldn't do it yet another day. I was really miserable.

In times of trouble, I run desperately to God for answers.I always asked God if you love me why do you give me so much pain? Why must you put me thru this sufferings? Why don't you answer my prayers?

Today, as I went to church, I found so much comfort in the gospel and the homily by Monsignor Coyle. It was definitely God sent.

THE EIGHT BEATITUDES OF JESUS


"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they shall be satisfied.

Blessed are the merciful,
for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure of heart,
for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called children of God.

Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

Gospel of Matthew 5:3-10

I have been blinded by this world of selfishness and greed. Never was I thankful for the blessings and talent given forth to me instead I kept dwelling on my misfortunes. I always insisted on taking charge of my life and insisted on life going exactly like how I planned. When I prayed I always said, God I really want this, please give it to me. I never opened doors for God to work in my life. The priest ended the homily with the prayer of St Francis.

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.

So my day turned from a really awful start as the company left for Quebec today to a sense of peacefulness words cannot even explain. And guess what?/ The Giants won the SUPERBOWL! Nothing is impossible really, we just have to have faith! =)