Sunday, December 16, 2007
Obsession with pretty ballet feet!
I always read articles of how girls love shoes and have a whole wardrobe full of shoes with different colors to match different outfits. Clearly, I'm not one of them & totally don't understand. It just occured to me today, that I am not much different. Just not street shoes but with ballet shoes. Good fit to the right shoe enhances your foot line. Of course, you need to be lucky to be either born with really good feet or worked then hard over the years. I was not so lucky to be born with good feet, but my obsession with making my feet look beautiful when i was younger got me strong feet that I am proud of today.=) The initial motivation was to have feet strong enough so i could get up on "pointe" (stand on your toes)and then, there is the hassle of breaking into your shoes, getting the shoe which gives you the best fit and makes your feet look stunning gorgeous. Well, that is the ultimate aim of course. I have tried possibly every single brand of pointe shoes over the last 8 years of my life. And yes, i have found the perfect shoe! Grishkho Maya 1, with the beautiful V line in the front of the shoe to give the feet a lengthened line. I love them! I got my first pair when I was in Australia for a 100 Australian dollars. I remember, when I saw my feet in it, I stood there for over half an hour just starring at my feet and when I finally decided to buy it, the guy said, I knew you wouldn't leave the shop without getting it, they look really good on your feet. And that's right, they did, i just stood there admiring my feet. How lame is that? Ah well! I still love my Griskho shoes but I finally realized that it is way too expensive and I can no longer afford wearing them weekly.=( Yes, my shoes break very fast nowadays, with full-time dancing and if i am working a lot on pointes, my shoes die within the week then I attempt every way to rescue it and make it last longer. I just enquired at a shop, a pair now cost 120 canadian dollars with a 3 months wait. How about that? Argh! So I finally decided to settle for a cheaper alternative, Bloch's just so my parents don't go broke and after all, if I am a good dancer, I'll make any shoe work! So, these are my new bloch's, a bit too big for me because I got them a long time ago and my feet have shrunk over the year. It's not too bad, I'll make them work, at least for now.=)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
New place to call home =)
Just about 2 weeks ago, I was at the point of breaking. I was about to pack my bags and leave. I was going to give up. How simply, 2 weeks and the world has turned around for me. I remember that day I was in tears when they said they didn't see me wanting it enough. Well, they were right! I was not hungry to dance! I would not die if I didn't dance! I always wanted to be normal and not an obsessed dancer! I refused to be labeled merely a dancer. I fought all my life to prove that I was worthy of more than that. Was I really?
Adapting to Montreal was not as easy as moving to New York. I loved New York and I chose it of all the places in the world. When I came here in March earlier this year. I knew, this was where I wanted to be. There was this sense of energy that drove me on. I was doing something I loved, I had teachers and friends that believed in me, there was always some really fun activity going on, many sources to draw inspiration from, I met the coolest people ever. It was practically a dream for me. Then, when I got the offer with Le Jeune Ballet. It was like a perfect opportunity. But it wasn't that simple, I couldn't fit in, new place, new language, new dance style, crazy weather. Threw me off. I was just lost. Everyday I was longing to be back in NY.
I was not embracing my life. I was not open to the new environment and the new opportunity. I just sat around holding on to memories. I was stagnant, not moving forward. I looked around and everyone was there for me. I realized, the change had to come from within, I had to want it enough, I had to plunge myself into that deep blue sea, it was what I wanted out of my life, no one else can make me want it. Of course, I prayed about it and decided I was going to give it my last shot. I gave every part of me in those last 2 weeks, and I am glad to say, I have not been happier =) Montreal feels like home now!
Adapting to Montreal was not as easy as moving to New York. I loved New York and I chose it of all the places in the world. When I came here in March earlier this year. I knew, this was where I wanted to be. There was this sense of energy that drove me on. I was doing something I loved, I had teachers and friends that believed in me, there was always some really fun activity going on, many sources to draw inspiration from, I met the coolest people ever. It was practically a dream for me. Then, when I got the offer with Le Jeune Ballet. It was like a perfect opportunity. But it wasn't that simple, I couldn't fit in, new place, new language, new dance style, crazy weather. Threw me off. I was just lost. Everyday I was longing to be back in NY.
I was not embracing my life. I was not open to the new environment and the new opportunity. I just sat around holding on to memories. I was stagnant, not moving forward. I looked around and everyone was there for me. I realized, the change had to come from within, I had to want it enough, I had to plunge myself into that deep blue sea, it was what I wanted out of my life, no one else can make me want it. Of course, I prayed about it and decided I was going to give it my last shot. I gave every part of me in those last 2 weeks, and I am glad to say, I have not been happier =) Montreal feels like home now!
Friday, September 14, 2007
can't bare the long hours...help....
I finally get a break!!! 2 day break i've been dying for! I've been dancing 6 days a week..and classes go from 9-7...it's been crazy!ppl always ask me..so you must have improved a lot??..well, honestly, i'm not quite sure..i still feel lousy... being promoted to trainee A...makes me feel worst! dancing with all the best dancers..they r so freaking good...=( i don't know what they eat...or what they do...they r just SO GOOD! i keep questioning myself why i am torturing myself by doing this??....
i've been learning a lot...normal days start with ballet technique, then pointe class or variations class, then we have pas de duex or jazz or modern, then another technique class, or character and yoga to cool off...pretty good schedule...just so tiring tho..=( plus we now have acting class too..it was WAY FUN! i really enjoyed that!n dance history class will be during our lunch break on thursday which means...i no longer have a break the whole thursday..tha'ts insane! yes it is!..ohmigod...the thought itself keeps me frightened!
so yup..i'm still in new york and joffrey has been exciting and crazy at the same time...i love it on some days...and hate it on others...guess that's what makes life colourful huh?/...ah well...
guess what??..peter pucci came to watch us in class!!!!! and he is going to use us for his gala benefit on the 28th of october....i'm excited...but for nothing really...cause i will no longer be here...so..i won't be able to be a part of his performance..but the dance piece looked so exciting.....it had a little jazzy twist to it...ah..darn...=(ah well... there's always next time..=)
it is beginning to get chilly here...i guess this marks the end of the summer...aw well..i had a pretty awesome summer here...=)...oh..i'm so excited..there's gonna be an end of the summer party tomorrow night..it's gonna be fun fun fun! yippie!
i've been learning a lot...normal days start with ballet technique, then pointe class or variations class, then we have pas de duex or jazz or modern, then another technique class, or character and yoga to cool off...pretty good schedule...just so tiring tho..=( plus we now have acting class too..it was WAY FUN! i really enjoyed that!n dance history class will be during our lunch break on thursday which means...i no longer have a break the whole thursday..tha'ts insane! yes it is!..ohmigod...the thought itself keeps me frightened!
so yup..i'm still in new york and joffrey has been exciting and crazy at the same time...i love it on some days...and hate it on others...guess that's what makes life colourful huh?/...ah well...
guess what??..peter pucci came to watch us in class!!!!! and he is going to use us for his gala benefit on the 28th of october....i'm excited...but for nothing really...cause i will no longer be here...so..i won't be able to be a part of his performance..but the dance piece looked so exciting.....it had a little jazzy twist to it...ah..darn...=(ah well... there's always next time..=)
it is beginning to get chilly here...i guess this marks the end of the summer...aw well..i had a pretty awesome summer here...=)...oh..i'm so excited..there's gonna be an end of the summer party tomorrow night..it's gonna be fun fun fun! yippie!
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Feeling on top of the world
I got lottery tickets to watch WICKED!!! first row, directly in the center...INCREDIBLE! Feeling like the luckiest gal on earth right now..i was dying to watch WICKED for a long time already..but tickets were sold out like 3 months in advance...so, today classes started at Joffrey again..it was awesome! (gonna miss that place so much)...after a good class..i just kept smiling stupidly to myself...and skipping around upbeat..=) so i decided to stop at the 50th street subway station which i normally don't do...i always stop at Columbus circle...i came out and saw Gershwin theater right opposite...i looked at my clock..eh..it's 445...maybe i can try for tickets..so i went and put my name down on the sheet..i was like..nvm lar..i got nothing much to do after this also..already so happy..just give it a shot la..i guess in my heart..i wanted it very much too..but..i didn't want to get disappointed..but there were so many ppl..i didn't want to put my hopes high...n suddenly i heard the guy say..where's jacqueline thong...i was like what???..ohmigod..tha'ts me!!!(in my usual blur way lar!) i was so happy..u have no idea..i was beaming with joy..and the world was so perfect! the past few weeks, i've been feeling really down..aside my injury...many of my friends left new york...my best buddy aka secret roommate returned back to poland...i felt pretty helpless..everyone in new york was busy with their own life..and i used to be myself too..until i couldn't dance much..even when i did..i felt really depressed...half of me..just wanted to jump on the plane back...i prayed for guidance to stand strong thru this, to be motivated, n not to give up...i just wanted to enjoy my last month in New York! He really did!!! He made my day..exactly what i needed to start a new school year..i'm so motivated now...=) will update on wicked tomororw..i need to sleep now..but i'm so happy..i don't think i can sleep..hehe..today was an awesome day!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
The Road Not Taken
I recently got my hands on the book The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost. I'm sure many of you recall studying it in form 4 or 5 as one of our compulsary literature components but i espcecially like this poem because it relates to me..=) btw..the book is really good..many very good poems and life lessons that I find difficult to comprehend...but thanks to technology..there r loads of websites for help..well here it goes..the road not taken
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
When I was in high school, i remember being taught that it was about the rewards of forging your own way in life and not following the path of others have taken. However, after some research, I found out that Robert Frost never intended it that way and referred to it as a very tricky poem. This poem was about his friend walking the woods in London and coming to a crossroad, there's no turning back in life, although one might change paths later on in life, they still can't change the past. It is about coming to crossroads of your life and making the decision. The poem was actually the thoughts of the traveler thinking back on the choice he made, wondering if it was the right one.Sounds familiar? Well, I guess after high school, we all come to that crossroad. It relates well to me, taking a road so uncertain. I truly hope one day, I could say, that has made all the difference. To all my friends out there, who have chosen paths not so popular, I admire all of you for daring to be different. Good luck & God has a great plan installed for all of us. I love you guys! =)
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
When I was in high school, i remember being taught that it was about the rewards of forging your own way in life and not following the path of others have taken. However, after some research, I found out that Robert Frost never intended it that way and referred to it as a very tricky poem. This poem was about his friend walking the woods in London and coming to a crossroad, there's no turning back in life, although one might change paths later on in life, they still can't change the past. It is about coming to crossroads of your life and making the decision. The poem was actually the thoughts of the traveler thinking back on the choice he made, wondering if it was the right one.Sounds familiar? Well, I guess after high school, we all come to that crossroad. It relates well to me, taking a road so uncertain. I truly hope one day, I could say, that has made all the difference. To all my friends out there, who have chosen paths not so popular, I admire all of you for daring to be different. Good luck & God has a great plan installed for all of us. I love you guys! =)
Read up guys..
Ah well, so looks like i'm gonna be stuck here for another month..so i'm back=) hehe..half of my heart is just screaming with joy..another half..just so tired!
You know, we talk about inefficiency in our country but really, it's not just our country! It's the same everywhere. I went to the Canadian consulate some 2 months ago, submitted my application and two weeks later they told me, my application can't be processed cause it requires a CAQ. Okay, my mistake. So submitted my CAQ & I was very pleased to receive it really quickly.I was jumping with joy. Hurray, now I'm gonna be able to get there on time. I returned to the consulate and hoped that everything was together this time and then...they told me I needed a medical examination done by a specific doctor from their list because I haven't been in the US for long enough! I just did a medical before coming to the US argh! not only was it gonna cost me another 300 dollars..(yes, i'm talking about USD here) but the bigger frustration it will take me another 4-8 weeks for it to be approved. Hello, my classes start on the 4th of September!!! argh...anyways...i guess, so much complaining won't change a thing! I wanted to jump on the plane back to Malaysia. Well, so don't be suprise if you see me around out of a sudden. Haha, well no, still a possibility, tomorrow I am going to check if Joffrey is gonna keep me and if they do. Yupe, i'll stay for another month..otherwise..hmmmpp..we'll see...=P
The past month has been stressful for me. It was like after my injury. My body no longer could do what my mind wanted me to do! HELP! argh! Just felt like breaking I might have been making a really bad choice in my life. But then, on days when i feel really down. I go for class and feel good again. It's sad. This love affair...
anyways, I spent the last month doing everything I wanted to do in New York. Finally, I was just ready to leave. But, guess I should be thankful. I got a bonus! Another month in New York! The dream! Ah..
I look at others in envy..their lives are so secure...they go to college..for the next 3-4 years of their life..and then...move on.. land a job..do well..get promoted...fall in love...get married...live happily ever after...quite a fairytale huh?? sighs..why didn't i choose that??..no wonder they call dancers stupid! sighs...what we do for our art...
You know, we talk about inefficiency in our country but really, it's not just our country! It's the same everywhere. I went to the Canadian consulate some 2 months ago, submitted my application and two weeks later they told me, my application can't be processed cause it requires a CAQ. Okay, my mistake. So submitted my CAQ & I was very pleased to receive it really quickly.I was jumping with joy. Hurray, now I'm gonna be able to get there on time. I returned to the consulate and hoped that everything was together this time and then...they told me I needed a medical examination done by a specific doctor from their list because I haven't been in the US for long enough! I just did a medical before coming to the US argh! not only was it gonna cost me another 300 dollars..(yes, i'm talking about USD here) but the bigger frustration it will take me another 4-8 weeks for it to be approved. Hello, my classes start on the 4th of September!!! argh...anyways...i guess, so much complaining won't change a thing! I wanted to jump on the plane back to Malaysia. Well, so don't be suprise if you see me around out of a sudden. Haha, well no, still a possibility, tomorrow I am going to check if Joffrey is gonna keep me and if they do. Yupe, i'll stay for another month..otherwise..hmmmpp..we'll see...=P
The past month has been stressful for me. It was like after my injury. My body no longer could do what my mind wanted me to do! HELP! argh! Just felt like breaking I might have been making a really bad choice in my life. But then, on days when i feel really down. I go for class and feel good again. It's sad. This love affair...
anyways, I spent the last month doing everything I wanted to do in New York. Finally, I was just ready to leave. But, guess I should be thankful. I got a bonus! Another month in New York! The dream! Ah..
I look at others in envy..their lives are so secure...they go to college..for the next 3-4 years of their life..and then...move on.. land a job..do well..get promoted...fall in love...get married...live happily ever after...quite a fairytale huh?? sighs..why didn't i choose that??..no wonder they call dancers stupid! sighs...what we do for our art...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
surrender...
I'm sorry guys...i give up blogging...i'm just no good at this!Things just been so hectic here in New York and I haven't had any inspiration to write about anything...New York has been awesome and I think u really have to live here to enjoy the whole experience...I'll be leaving to Montreal soon...half of me is pretty excited about that..but I no longer know how i am going to cope with a slower paced life..when i visited boston recently...i realised how different things were and I couldn't even stand the pace of ppl walking on the streets...i guess i've become much more impatient...anyway...perhps when i am in montreal and have more time i'll be back..but for my last few days in new york...i just want to enjoy it to the max..
love,
Jac
love,
Jac
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Double Bill(Grease & Chorus Line)
I was packing up some stuff today and I came across a DVD of pictures of Double Bill...got me all sentimental..=) i miss performing on stage...this was one of the most challenging performances I did...and extremely fun & rewarding..
fyi..double bill was a pspa production I was involved in March..it was also restaged for Sultan in April...it was the same week as my Juilliard auditions and I had to fly there and back within the week...needless to say..i was way exhausted...fell sick..lost my voice...was suffering from jetlag..but the show went on..and i had a time of my life..just being able to perform..do something i loved..and being appreciated...it was priceless..=)these gorgeous pictures were taken by uncle Ronnie..thank you so much for your effort and giving me a copy! and to those grease ppl i really had fun working with ya all! miss ya guys! =) mom, syl, gavin & uncle Yoong Kim...thanks for believing in me..and giving me the opportunity to explore different roles..hats off to u guys for fabulous work! =)
Summer nights-girls..i know the guys had all the cool moves..but we look pretty sweet...haha =) so not me!
i like this pic..i look hot eh??/...lol...okay..don't puke...next...
"I'm so nervous" Bebe(skirt falls off accidentally) how realistic..=)
I love this picture captured of Gavin as director...the lighting and everything..makes it so artistic...
Kiss today goodbye...the song you are listening to right now...a dancer who twist her ankle..which marks the end of her career...=(...sighs..
Don't we look stunning???...
Chorus Line leads...
The whole jing gang(Cast & crew of Double Bill-Grease & Chorus Line 2007)...full of smiles...=) although it was hardwork..tiring having to go thru all those rehearsals...getting yelled at by syl & Mr chin...it all paid off...we had a wonderful time...made new friendships and shared the same joy and overcomed the challenge of having to dance, act & sing...we did it..yahoo!!! =)
Click pictures to enlarge and see yourself =) Pictures courtesy of Mr Ronnie
fyi..double bill was a pspa production I was involved in March..it was also restaged for Sultan in April...it was the same week as my Juilliard auditions and I had to fly there and back within the week...needless to say..i was way exhausted...fell sick..lost my voice...was suffering from jetlag..but the show went on..and i had a time of my life..just being able to perform..do something i loved..and being appreciated...it was priceless..=)these gorgeous pictures were taken by uncle Ronnie..thank you so much for your effort and giving me a copy! and to those grease ppl i really had fun working with ya all! miss ya guys! =) mom, syl, gavin & uncle Yoong Kim...thanks for believing in me..and giving me the opportunity to explore different roles..hats off to u guys for fabulous work! =)
Summer nights-girls..i know the guys had all the cool moves..but we look pretty sweet...haha =) so not me!
i like this pic..i look hot eh??/...lol...okay..don't puke...next...
"I'm so nervous" Bebe(skirt falls off accidentally) how realistic..=)
I love this picture captured of Gavin as director...the lighting and everything..makes it so artistic...
Kiss today goodbye...the song you are listening to right now...a dancer who twist her ankle..which marks the end of her career...=(...sighs..
Don't we look stunning???...
Chorus Line leads...
The whole jing gang(Cast & crew of Double Bill-Grease & Chorus Line 2007)...full of smiles...=) although it was hardwork..tiring having to go thru all those rehearsals...getting yelled at by syl & Mr chin...it all paid off...we had a wonderful time...made new friendships and shared the same joy and overcomed the challenge of having to dance, act & sing...we did it..yahoo!!! =)
Click pictures to enlarge and see yourself =) Pictures courtesy of Mr Ronnie
Monday, July 16, 2007
Central Park
I particularly like this pic i took of central park..pretty isn't it??..it's so huge...i always get lost there...luckily i got friends with good sense of direction..there is another part that i really like..it's the part next to the boat house..like when u see in the movies..when they play romantic scenes...the couple rowing a boat...argh..hard to explain..but..i'll get a picture soon..exactly like in the movies..hehe =)love new york..it's so beautiful..=P
Saturday, July 14, 2007
undercover cop
I'll try back-dating my posts with more pictures...n add a photo album too...give me time =)
anyways...last weekend...irene, anya and i wondered around in Chinatown..needless to say...lots & lots of ppl..well chinese ppl! felt so much like Hong Kong...anyways...we got yummy cheap food(well cheap for New York's standard la)...the exciting part..there was this guy...he stole something from a woman...the woman yelled..n we just stood there in shock...then...behind him...a guy pounced him onto the floor..wearing the I love new york T-shirt...apparently..it was an undercover cop dressed as a tourist...he took out his hand carve from his pocket..yup...exactly like in the movies...it was cool...way cool..i dunno how to put it in words...but it happened all right in front of my eyes...like..free action show..haha..(apparently there r loads of undercover cops in New York..some guy jumped the subway barrier n got a 250 dollar fine...tho that was really stupid..)well just wanted to let u guys know...sorry..i know i'm not a good storyteller..=P
anyways...last weekend...irene, anya and i wondered around in Chinatown..needless to say...lots & lots of ppl..well chinese ppl! felt so much like Hong Kong...anyways...we got yummy cheap food(well cheap for New York's standard la)...the exciting part..there was this guy...he stole something from a woman...the woman yelled..n we just stood there in shock...then...behind him...a guy pounced him onto the floor..wearing the I love new york T-shirt...apparently..it was an undercover cop dressed as a tourist...he took out his hand carve from his pocket..yup...exactly like in the movies...it was cool...way cool..i dunno how to put it in words...but it happened all right in front of my eyes...like..free action show..haha..(apparently there r loads of undercover cops in New York..some guy jumped the subway barrier n got a 250 dollar fine...tho that was really stupid..)well just wanted to let u guys know...sorry..i know i'm not a good storyteller..=P
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
2 n a half months in NY
Picture of a burger i ate at vinyl...yum yum! Is this freaky or what??..thankfully i don't eat that everyday.. otherwise.. ohmigod.. i'll come back 10 times my size..n geez.. wonder how i would be able to dance...n oh..btw..i'm not considered fat here..that's kindof cool huh??..but it's bad at the same time..cause i have no motivation to lose weight either..n eat as much as i wish =P
okay..sorry for not posting for ages again..hehe..it's been 2 n a half months..within that time..i watched quite a lotof ballets both American Ballet Theatre & New York City Ballet...my favourite being Jewels...it was gorgeous!..oh well..manon was lovely too..that was Ferri's final performance..u won't believe this..she's been a principal since before i was born....she was stunning...i dream that one day..i too could do ballets like that...well..let's hope it won't merely be dreams...you know how in chorus line..they actors talk of how much watching a ballet change their life..and all they want was to be a dancer...i felt that for every single performance...i LOVED them!n finally feel like i'm closer and closer to my dream...(sadly, the season closed last weekend)...but well well..time for some musicals now.....woohoo!...went to Miami for comp...go out quite a bit...made good friends...went to a rock concert last nite...began my summer intensive...(it's actually into my 4th week already..hehe)...injured my left hip...n just realized that it's just weeks away before i leave new york..time flies doesn't it??..i'm gonna miss this place loads!!! guess i won't be too far away lar!
ah well.right now..i am craving keropok lekor...it's crazy..=P
the weather is nuts..it's so hot!..it's 90 over degrees here...i feel like i'm in a sauna everyday...so much for hating malaysian weather..i want it again!!!so guys..appreciate it..okay??>..
still admiring the picture of my burger..bet u r!!!...haha...i'll exchange that for keropok lekor...now!=P
another week=)
Another week has passed..aiyeayea...how quickly time flies passed...this place is beginning to feel like home now...(not so comfy home i must say).n i'm learning all the different teachers styles..so i'm coping a little better...still..it's so competitive..unbelievable thing.... i watched..this gal do 8 pirouettes on pointe!!!..just staying up..without even coming down..she was crazy....it seems that she can normally do that...WOW...that's really crazy...not to mention..we've been doing fouette turns...32 everytime..towards the end..i lose my balance..n focus..=(...n the other day..we did fouette into attitude..that was really really nuts..haha...i watched NEW YORK CITY BALLET on tuesday..geez..were they good..their lines were beautiful...the pieces were very modern...fantastic combination of pieces..one of the pieces they did was moves...n they danced the whole piece without any music..n they were absolutely together..but..it was amazing..i could feel the pulse from the audience...oh did i mention...i got orchestra seats for 12 dollars..muahahaha..cheap eh>??...n another piece..was carousel..when i watched it...reminded me of the time we did carousel..it was so many years ago...6 years was it??..i was so little then!!! it was fun tho..but..haha if u compare my dancing to theirs/..u will CRY! =P anyways..they did like a 20 minute carousel piece as such..so just music..n dancing..i particularly enjoyed that i guess because i knew the storyline..n the music reminded me of being on stage...they formed a lovely carousel at the end..with the boys lifting the girls..n holding poles...where they just went round..really beautiful..i liked that very much......u know..it's so true..what they say.."there's no business like show business..no where could u get that special feeling...when u r stealing that extra bow" haha..not that..but really...it's no wonder it's such a competitive industry...not only do u get paid peas...but the work n hours u have to put in..is nuts..yet..so many want to do it..so many would just die to be on that stage...aiyeayea...just the feeling u get out of it...esp when u r doing something u love...i'd do anything for that...the adrenaline rush..the excitement...well..watching it.made me realised how much i loved the stage...but first..i need to get my technique together...focus jac..focus! well..i must admit...half of it seems like just a dream in a fairytale..yet another part of me..feels like..i'm so close yet so far..u know what i mena??...it's like..i'm almost there..so many years of training..yet...who knows how many more to go...sighs...i guess i know God has a plan for me..so i'm just gonna leave it all to Him..he knows best what's for me..=) oh yes, you guys..i've actually been going to church everyweek??>.haha..even join their prayer sessions...it's good..like..there is a greater reason to my being...very refreshing when times r down...this weekend..let's see what i did...okay..u guys r gonna kill me for not carrying my camera around..it feels like home now..like..no point taking camera around anymore..haha..sad huh??..well..yeah..i kindof regret also..but..anyways..this weekend..i had a pretty fun filled weekedn..=) oh..did i mention the crazy weather yet??..the weather is really crazy...freezing one minute..n really hot the next...rain n sun..it's suppose to be summer..argh!...it actually went down to 4 degrees the other day...crazy..okay..anyways..i went to union sqaure...n there was this parade..BE YOURSELF parade..haha..they had lots of different type of ppl..even cross dresses... dancing..it was nice to watch...i guess....everyone is different..so just be your unique self..n not try to be something u r not..n we should love others for who they r...cause we r all one human race!=) then..i was suppose to go for a picnic...but it was raining & bitterly cold..so i just stayed in my room the whole evening..the next day...i went to an international food festival..with mariluz, jonathan n marion.....well..it was more or less a pasar malam..just WAY BIGGER SCALE>...it was like a funfair as such...it was down the entire 9th avenue..so..u can imagine....u could see like a SEA of ppl..from afar...lots n lots n lots of ppl..lots of food too not to mention..n geez...i learnt that my roommate is a real shopper...we stopped at like every store for her to buy something..haha..but it was cool..the only thing was the SUN>..it was SO HOT!!! again..crazy weather...so..another pretty cool week..=) excited for the many more to come...yippie!!!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
First week in New York
It's been 12 days since I arrived here...unbelievable how time flies! Sorry I haven't started blogging as i promised =P..but here it is!!!!..finally..somewhere i can post my thoughts =) Those of you whom i didn't get to meet up with before i left...i'm truly sorry...my travel agent messed up my flight n i had to fly a few days earlier..n me being the last minute person that i am...didn't finish packing..till before i had to leave to the airport..hehe..but don't worry..i'll be back..or u could make a visit here..=)U guys who put so much effort to have a nice slumber cum farewell cum birthday party..thanks so much!..i truly appreciate it...i miss McDonalds...n the blueberry cheesecake..hehe..thanks!pek yeng..jessica..sook yan n nat..for the very precious book.thanks so much..i dunno how to thank you...it's like..my most treasured possession now...u guys inspire me to strive for perfection!!!
New York City- Loving it! Well, I came here last in March so I knew pretty much exactly what to expect=) I knew this was the place to be (at least for what i wanted to do).Busy like mad!Everything is so fast paced here...if u slow down..u'll get left behind! I even got scolded by this women for walking too slowly! Freak, I was looking at the street signs! Geez! Well...not a beautiful place...but somewhere you see lots n lots n lots of ppl...n i yeah..they walk really quickly...u see a big mix of ppl..every type...the things that appeal to me more..lot's of musicals...lot's of ballets..they have more than 30 musicals playing everynite...definitely the arts center of the world!Now, i need to figure out how i'm gonna have enough money to watch all those musicals n ballets before i come back!!! Sponsors???...hehe..i'll watch them for u..since u can't be here=)
Joffrey Ballet School-For those of you who had no idea..that's where i'm dancing! If you guys watched "The Company" yeah...Joffrey Ballet featured in it. finally doing full-time dancing...loving it..but it's killing me..it's so competitive here..n they r so good..i feel so lousy sometimes...but then...there r those moments..when i dance..n feel on top of the world..those moments r PRICELESS! we have..technique class..followed by pointe...then pas de duex..or variation..or another technique..or modern or jazz...but right now..the schedules r a bit screwed up cause they r having a student choreographer workshop next week...n the upcoming spring performance..so they have tons of rehearsals...=) well..joining them at the end of the term is probably the most difficult thing...last week..during variation class..we did...The Sylvia variation..it was so freaking difficult! i'll add the video sometime..so u guys will understand what i'm talking about! n during pas de duex class...they were working on the famous don quixote pas de duex...oh..did i tell u..that the students were really really good..there's this gal..she can do like..8 pirouettes on pointe..nuts yeah??..like..effortlessly...n she is totally on balance type..not like she is throwing herself around or anything..i feel so lousy..sob sobs...n guess what..i got blisters this week...it hurts like hell..on both my feet..so i can't dance less on one leg....or transfer my weight more onto one leg..to avoid the pain..n i've been having pointe class still everyday..it's dreadful!!! it even hurts when i put on my normal sport shoes...n i had to jump on it on pointes....sighs..even the thought itself hurts..i pray pray pray so hard..that my blister will go away...haih...it hurts so bad..hope it'll get better next week...although there is no sign of recovery still..sighs...n i need to do this performance tomorrow!!!..help me!!!
Centro Maria-i'm actually living with roommates...unbelievable yeah??..well..it's this student housing place..runed by spannish nuns..so it's pretty much an all girls convent..haha..suprise suprise..=) n suprisingly..i'm loving it...met great friends here..n the nuns r just so kind..i even went to church on sunday!=) i'm so proud of myself for that! yeah..the rooms r all booked up for the summer so i can't get a single room till next term...at first..i was thinking..haih..maybe i'll just stay in a for short while..till i find my own place..then i'll move out..but now...this place feels like home...they're so kind..=) so..we'll see..i was so worried that i won't be able to live with roommates..since i've never shared my room my whole life..but hey..it's kindof nice too...=) i live with a japanese gal..tomoka..n a mexican gal..mariluz..n don't worry.i've been keeping my room real tidy! i'll take a photo of it sometime=). oh yes..haha..something i'm not so proud of..i nearly blew up the microwave! lol..first week..n geez..i'm really hopeless..thankfully they provide breakfast n dinner everyday..so..tha'ts cool=) cooking is definitely not my thing! i am gonna try laundry tomorrow..fingers crossed..hope i don't shrink all my clothes..=) i can't be that bad!
Okay..i won't promise that i'll keep writing..cause i know the chances of me breaking my promise is darn high..but i will try my best...to keep u guys updated..take care! n good luck with everything u r doing..
love,
jac
New York City- Loving it! Well, I came here last in March so I knew pretty much exactly what to expect=) I knew this was the place to be (at least for what i wanted to do).Busy like mad!Everything is so fast paced here...if u slow down..u'll get left behind! I even got scolded by this women for walking too slowly! Freak, I was looking at the street signs! Geez! Well...not a beautiful place...but somewhere you see lots n lots n lots of ppl...n i yeah..they walk really quickly...u see a big mix of ppl..every type...the things that appeal to me more..lot's of musicals...lot's of ballets..they have more than 30 musicals playing everynite...definitely the arts center of the world!Now, i need to figure out how i'm gonna have enough money to watch all those musicals n ballets before i come back!!! Sponsors???...hehe..i'll watch them for u..since u can't be here=)
Joffrey Ballet School-For those of you who had no idea..that's where i'm dancing! If you guys watched "The Company" yeah...Joffrey Ballet featured in it. finally doing full-time dancing...loving it..but it's killing me..it's so competitive here..n they r so good..i feel so lousy sometimes...but then...there r those moments..when i dance..n feel on top of the world..those moments r PRICELESS! we have..technique class..followed by pointe...then pas de duex..or variation..or another technique..or modern or jazz...but right now..the schedules r a bit screwed up cause they r having a student choreographer workshop next week...n the upcoming spring performance..so they have tons of rehearsals...=) well..joining them at the end of the term is probably the most difficult thing...last week..during variation class..we did...The Sylvia variation..it was so freaking difficult! i'll add the video sometime..so u guys will understand what i'm talking about! n during pas de duex class...they were working on the famous don quixote pas de duex...oh..did i tell u..that the students were really really good..there's this gal..she can do like..8 pirouettes on pointe..nuts yeah??..like..effortlessly...n she is totally on balance type..not like she is throwing herself around or anything..i feel so lousy..sob sobs...n guess what..i got blisters this week...it hurts like hell..on both my feet..so i can't dance less on one leg....or transfer my weight more onto one leg..to avoid the pain..n i've been having pointe class still everyday..it's dreadful!!! it even hurts when i put on my normal sport shoes...n i had to jump on it on pointes....sighs..even the thought itself hurts..i pray pray pray so hard..that my blister will go away...haih...it hurts so bad..hope it'll get better next week...although there is no sign of recovery still..sighs...n i need to do this performance tomorrow!!!..help me!!!
Centro Maria-i'm actually living with roommates...unbelievable yeah??..well..it's this student housing place..runed by spannish nuns..so it's pretty much an all girls convent..haha..suprise suprise..=) n suprisingly..i'm loving it...met great friends here..n the nuns r just so kind..i even went to church on sunday!=) i'm so proud of myself for that! yeah..the rooms r all booked up for the summer so i can't get a single room till next term...at first..i was thinking..haih..maybe i'll just stay in a for short while..till i find my own place..then i'll move out..but now...this place feels like home...they're so kind..=) so..we'll see..i was so worried that i won't be able to live with roommates..since i've never shared my room my whole life..but hey..it's kindof nice too...=) i live with a japanese gal..tomoka..n a mexican gal..mariluz..n don't worry.i've been keeping my room real tidy! i'll take a photo of it sometime=). oh yes..haha..something i'm not so proud of..i nearly blew up the microwave! lol..first week..n geez..i'm really hopeless..thankfully they provide breakfast n dinner everyday..so..tha'ts cool=) cooking is definitely not my thing! i am gonna try laundry tomorrow..fingers crossed..hope i don't shrink all my clothes..=) i can't be that bad!
Okay..i won't promise that i'll keep writing..cause i know the chances of me breaking my promise is darn high..but i will try my best...to keep u guys updated..take care! n good luck with everything u r doing..
love,
jac
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