New place to call home =)

Just about 2 weeks ago, I was at the point of breaking. I was about to pack my bags and leave. I was going to give up. How simply, 2 weeks and the world has turned around for me. I remember that day I was in tears when they said they didn't see me wanting it enough. Well, they were right! I was not hungry to dance! I would not die if I didn't dance! I always wanted to be normal and not an obsessed dancer! I refused to be labeled merely a dancer. I fought all my life to prove that I was worthy of more than that. Was I really?

Adapting to Montreal was not as easy as moving to New York. I loved New York and I chose it of all the places in the world. When I came here in March earlier this year. I knew, this was where I wanted to be. There was this sense of energy that drove me on. I was doing something I loved, I had teachers and friends that believed in me, there was always some really fun activity going on, many sources to draw inspiration from, I met the coolest people ever. It was practically a dream for me. Then, when I got the offer with Le Jeune Ballet. It was like a perfect opportunity. But it wasn't that simple, I couldn't fit in, new place, new language, new dance style, crazy weather. Threw me off. I was just lost. Everyday I was longing to be back in NY.

I was not embracing my life. I was not open to the new environment and the new opportunity. I just sat around holding on to memories. I was stagnant, not moving forward. I looked around and everyone was there for me. I realized, the change had to come from within, I had to want it enough, I had to plunge myself into that deep blue sea, it was what I wanted out of my life, no one else can make me want it. Of course, I prayed about it and decided I was going to give it my last shot. I gave every part of me in those last 2 weeks, and I am glad to say, I have not been happier =) Montreal feels like home now!