Read up guys..

Ah well, so looks like i'm gonna be stuck here for another month..so i'm back=) hehe..half of my heart is just screaming with joy..another half..just so tired!

You know, we talk about inefficiency in our country but really, it's not just our country! It's the same everywhere. I went to the Canadian consulate some 2 months ago, submitted my application and two weeks later they told me, my application can't be processed cause it requires a CAQ. Okay, my mistake. So submitted my CAQ & I was very pleased to receive it really quickly.I was jumping with joy. Hurray, now I'm gonna be able to get there on time. I returned to the consulate and hoped that everything was together this time and then...they told me I needed a medical examination done by a specific doctor from their list because I haven't been in the US for long enough! I just did a medical before coming to the US argh! not only was it gonna cost me another 300 dollars..(yes, i'm talking about USD here) but the bigger frustration it will take me another 4-8 weeks for it to be approved. Hello, my classes start on the 4th of September!!! argh...anyways...i guess, so much complaining won't change a thing! I wanted to jump on the plane back to Malaysia. Well, so don't be suprise if you see me around out of a sudden. Haha, well no, still a possibility, tomorrow I am going to check if Joffrey is gonna keep me and if they do. Yupe, i'll stay for another month..otherwise..hmmmpp..we'll see...=P

The past month has been stressful for me. It was like after my injury. My body no longer could do what my mind wanted me to do! HELP! argh! Just felt like breaking I might have been making a really bad choice in my life. But then, on days when i feel really down. I go for class and feel good again. It's sad. This love affair...

anyways, I spent the last month doing everything I wanted to do in New York. Finally, I was just ready to leave. But, guess I should be thankful. I got a bonus! Another month in New York! The dream! Ah..

I look at others in envy..their lives are so secure...they go to college..for the next 3-4 years of their life..and then...move on.. land a job..do well..get promoted...fall in love...get married...live happily ever after...quite a fairytale huh?? sighs..why didn't i choose that??..no wonder they call dancers stupid! sighs...what we do for our art...